Truth can be dreams: February 2004

Friday, February 27, 2004

Two days ago I read some passages in the bible. I can't even tell you what I read, I just don't remember. But I have felt renewed and refreshed by those words. I actually FEEL the LIFE that they have put in me. Today I am different. I love more, live more, feel more, and desire truth like I should.

Here it comes. I know what's coming, I can feel it coming. I've felt this all before......but different. I can see and hear a huge wave of GOD on its way to cover me. To pour over me so intensely I may not be able to hold my breath under that wave. But the Lord will breathe for me. He is my breath.

hayes at 10:29 p.m.
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Tuesday, February 17, 2004

It's been a busy few weeks. My mother was just here for the last week. To make things a little easier on us we flew her here instead of taking a drive down to Thunder Bay. It's just so hard to travel with little kids in the car, and Ryan need to keep working. It would cost us way too much to take a week off of working. Anyway, the visit was good. She (my mommie) will be having heart surgery soon. She is 80% blocked in one of her arteries. So we are hoping she will get the surgery soon.

We have made it to church three sundays ina row. I know that seems like no big deal to most of you, but for us its a big deal. It has actually been quite hard to get there . But so worth it. Silver is really comfortable in the childrens room! We just might be able to leave him in there alone now. I got to stay in the service this time. And guess what? God spoke to me. When Nathan said something about God knowing where we are at, what stage we are at in life. He knows what we can and can't do. To me that ment alot. I often get frustrated with all the things I want to do but just cant. A great peace fell over me when I heard those words. I just thought "Ya hey, Jesus knows what I have the time for and what I dont, He knows the season of life i am in (two kids, husband gone alot). I just have to stop worrying about all the things I used to do and cant do now and focus on what I can be doing now....in THIS time of life. God is good!

hayes at 3:30 p.m.
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Tuesday, February 03, 2004

Updating quickly. We had my sisters kids all weekend. It was a good weekend but also a very tiring one. They left last night and today my body hurts. To think that Ryan and I wanted to have 4 kids all before I turn 30......Well after this weekend thats a big NO WAY! My whole body hurts. Ryan is really tired too. Poor guy has to work the next three days too!

Im so sick of feeling like Im missing out on life. AmI just letting it all pass me by, or is this just my life for now. This isnt making sence I know. I used to grab life and go. Try anything once. I am becomming more and more frustrated with myself. Ive got to begin to make my dreams happen. Just go for it.

hayes at 8:21 p.m.
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