I feel the need to write out Ryan's schedule....I think it will help me to see just how much he is away and if all my whining and loneliness is valid.....

Lets start with
June 1st- gone 14 hours
2nd- gone 14 hours
3rd- 5 hours
4th- 16 hours
5th- 8.5 hours
6th- 8.5 hours

Now this coming week here's what it looks like
7th - 17 hours
8th - 20 hours
9th - 15 hours
10th - 15 hours
11th - 11 hours
12th - 5 hours (but we get to see him this day at kids fest in his play)
13th - 11 hours
14th - 12 hours

Well .....It seems to be as bad as I thought. No wonder I feel like he's never here! I know it sucks for him too. He hates being away.