Sick day

Today is my sick day. I had to stay home from work today. Luckily someone could cover my shift. I haven't called into to work in so long it felt strange. But seriously I am ill. It feels like a bit of a flu. I just ate some cereal and now I want to chuck. Perhaps I will go lay down.

I was so exhausted on Saturday night that I crashed on the couch at 8:30. As soon as the kids went to bed I was out. It was a weird feeling. I couldn't keep my eyes open. I had things I needed to do but I just couldn't stay awake. My body wouldn't let me do anything but sleep. I am going to try to get to bed earlier.

There has been very little time around our place to just relax. I haven't had a day off in a very long time. So I have stopped working Fridays at the store. I just couldn't take the extra night away from the kids and Ryan. We are at a busy time in our lives, with work kids, school etc so it's actually hard to know where to draw the line on certain things....like work. Because we need to work but how much. How much money do we really need. That's the big question I guess. Money is always good because there are always things to buy or places to give but how much is enough? I don't know. All I know is I was working too much and now Friday nights off will be much appreciated. I love my job because it helps me to pursue my passions in life. I hope that one day my passions in life will also put food on the table. That would be very cool. I am experiencing some of that now and it feels pretty good.

gotta run.

We took the kids skating today. It felt nice to not be in a hurry to get somewhere. After I got off work we stayed at the Forks and the kids tried skating for the first time. Silver tried really hard and probably could have kept skating for hours. Trinity needed quite a bit of help and our backs where aching. Then we had a nice little snack and some hot chocolate of course.

I am starting to think about the trips we will be taking this summer. We will be driving out west for a wedding in B.C. I hope to stop in Kamloops and Calgary to see some friends. We haven't really been back there for 5 years so it will be nice to see people again.

I use to drive from Canmore to Kamloops almost every weekend just for church. I can't remember how long the drive is. I think it's 5 or 6 hours. I totally loved it. People use to think I was crazy but driving through the mountains is AWESOME and I really felt connected to the people there and what they where doing. I always stopped at the same places along the way. Man those are great memories. Anyway it will be awesome to drive that road again. The kids are going to love it!

It's been a good week. After my yuckie day on Wednesday things started to look up. Here's what I'm thinking about today.
-I am terribly out of shape, my muscles are weak
-there are a few things I need to start studying
-I've got to get to the post office
-I'm not really into blogging lately

Weird Wednesday

I had such a weird day on Wednesday. It was busy, stressful, fun, exciting, and tiring. It's been awhile since I had a day where I just felt like a total failure. It was like I could hardly do anything right or good. I freakin hated it.

Most often when I have these weird moments God gives me the ability to see the positive. To see that he is sharpening me and my character is being strengthened, but yesterday I just hated it. I wanted to fall into bed and cry until I slept. Well that didn't happen. I had to press on and keep going until the day finally ended. Today was much better.

I started writing a poem yesterday. If felt good to be inspired to write again. I'm still working on my first song. I started it about 5 years ago. I really should get on that. We are going to buy the rest of the stuff we need to have a complete drum kit soon. I can hardly wait.......but it will be awhile until we have a day off together to actually get the stuff. maybe next week.

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Do I have to? I really don't have much to say. Actually nothing.

Write it down

I have no idea what to write about today. I am in this freakin crazy mood. I am somewhat pissed at the world, I think I'm just tired and sick of being so. I guess the holidays can take a lot out of a person without them even noticing.

I wonder if I should actually post this.

I just wrote two paragraphs and deleted it. I like to make lists. It helps me relax. Here is a list


Dreams
-become a master sculptor
-help people to connect with the creator
-care more 'actively' about humans
-be a good friend
-appreciate my husband more
-see the beauty that surrounds me
-eat more vegetables
-buy boots
-pay bills
-see doctor
-see dentist
-pray
-journal/write poetry again

Feel free to share your lists. I would love to see what other people are dreaming about and working towards.