Anyone?

Does anyone happen to own the DVD or VHS of U2's best of? I need to see the video for NUMB. Its for a dance.

We brought our car in yesterday to have it looked at. It's been making some crazy noises the past couple of months. It seems that we need quite a bit of work done. We need to have it all done before we head off to Eston on the 28th of July. It will cost about 500.00 bucks! So we are praying. That 500 doesn't even include having our windshield replaced! We still don't know how much that will be.

I am slowly working on the dances that I will need for Eston. I really need to crack down. I have a whole whack of ideas I just need to hear from God on which ones I need to focus on. This is such a great thing for me. I am feeling very challenged.

Nutty

I can't believe how crazy the weather has been. Winnipeg is the nuttiest place for weather. Do you think it will flood?

So the surgeon had no answers for me BIG SURPRISE! I see another specialist next week.......

Have you ever noticed how bad Cheerios smell? My house smells like them this morning and it's kinda making me feel sick.

Have you notice I have nothing to say.

I just told Silver to go pick Ryan's nose, he is sleeping..........not anymore.

Come now is the time

My thoughts have been consumed these past few days with one thought.......My health (or lack of). I have an appointment with the general surgeon this week. I am going to ask him a lot of major questions. I just can't deal with this much longer. Not knowing what is wrong with me has been the most challenging thing I have had to deal with in my life.

You see I was raised to be a fighter. To be someone who just won't lie down and die but who will fight till the end. Just giving up has never really been much of an option in any situation. But this whole sickness thing has been HELL. Yes I said HELL! You see I have nothing to fight. I know, I know I have written about this all before but it is a constant issue in my life so I have to release my frustration somewhere.

I have been feeling very weak lately. There is so much I want to do and so much I am doing that requires my full attention and I just can't give it. But let me tell you something. God has really come through for me. He has inspired me so much in many areas. He has come in and given me strength where I lack it, and also patience.

But I'm ready. Ready to know what I am fighting. Is it something huge that will eventually take my life, or something that one pill can solve. Jesus I turn to you for the answer.

Rain rain go away

I usually LOVE the rain but I am getting a little sick of it. Tonight I was outside for a bit and let me tell you there where about ten thousand mosquitoes. Not cool.

So remember when I wrote about being asked to go to Thunder Bay to lead the dance at the Street invaders bootcamp in July? Well it was cancelled. I was really looking forward to the challenge and I was bummed that it was cancelled. Then again it would have been hard to go for a whole week without Ryan, and I would have taken both kids with me.

Do you know what Street invaders is? Well just check out this website http://www.streetinvaders.ca/

Sheri McConnell is the one who asked me, she sets all the bootcamps up and finds the people to fill the positions. Well I got a call from her about two weeks ago. She asked me if I could lead the dance for the Eston bootcamp! I know that most of you have NO CLUE what I am talking about but for me this is a big step in my dance/worship/ministry. I need to come up with a few dances for the teams to learn. Also I need to run the whole worship free dance stuff (which God gave me some Wicked ideas for), and put together some dances to be done by the dance leadership team in services.

I have about 6 weeks to have all my stuff ready. Then I go down to Eston and meet the dancers I will be working with. I think the hardest part will be working with people I have never even met! I will have two days to work with them and teach them everything. Then we have 5 days to teach the teams.

I'm SUPER excited. Ryan and the kids are coming too and Ryan is going to be teaching some classes. I really need to focus these next 6 weeks. I want to be prepared. That's all for now. Goodnight.

SUCKIE

It's early. I'm tired. Someone slashed our tire and it is completely FLAT. Ryan had to take a taxi to work. I am thankful that our car wasn't stolen. That's all I have I can't think straight. I usually pray over our car everyday. No joke. I mean I don't go out and lay hands on it everyday, but I would say a prayer thanking God for our car and ask him to protect it. For some reason the last 2 or 3 weeks I have stopped that. I need to get back in the habit. Also Ryan (and this is for real), was swatting a bug in the car and broke our windshield! There is a huge spiderery crack on the passenger side. HELLO! I guess he doesn't know his own strength.

The past 4 years or so I have been in a major social slump. I have been meditating on why for the last 4 years I have basically been socially inept. I just don't have the time or energy, or I just don't WANT to have the time or energy.

I love talking to people but I don't go out of my way at all to do it. You see if I have some reason to talk to a person I will. but if there is no reason then I will not just walk up to someone and say "Hello my name is Alexandra".

This is something I need to change. I have to resurrect my social skills. I am going to give it a try.

In need

So I need a cd by Nicole C Mullens. Does anyone out there (who lives in Winnipeg) have her cd 'Everyday people'? What I really need is the song 'The One'. I just don't have the money to buy the cd right now but it would be great if I could borrow it from someone. Thanks!

Light a candle

This morning at church we had an incredible service. It was dedicated to parents who have experienced loss of a child. There where some parents who spoke and told a bit of their story. I was absolutely crushed.

I never know what to say to people who have lost someone they love. I usually don't say anything. I always think of how stupid and pointless my words would be to someone who is grieving. I also think of what I would want to hear, what would help me if I was in that state? I have no idea. I guess I wouldn't want people to stay silent and then I wouldn't want to hear "It's going to be alright" either.

I have a great respect for those who have lived through death. I have not experienced much of it myself.

I have 4 older sisters and we all have children. One of my sisters lost her child by miscarriage a few years ago just before Trinity was born. I mourned the lost of that child, that niece or nephew my kids will never get to play with on this earth. We gave Trinity 3 names, Trinity scarlet Mystery Hayes. The Mystery is in honor of that lost child so that we would never forget, and we won't.